So What

So what that I cannot stand chipped nails! Once they are chipped I have to change them & have them redone other wise I will rake the rest off anyway.. I guess that is part of my said ocd working...

So what that I get sad & cry sometimes because I am not yet married or have kids.. I want want both something awful if I am being honest! I always knew since younger that I always wanted to be married young & have kids young.. 

So what that I love being an auntie to all these sweet little ones in my life but at the same time a part of me dies a little more inside because I know that those precious little ones are not mine & will never call me mamma like they will my friends..

So what that I worry what I did wrong to deserve not being able to be a mother yet or a wife? I know I would be great at both! Sometimes its a lot to handle..I can only keep praying & hope that GOD gives me both! I have to hope that my prince charming is out their just waiting for me to find him & snatch him right up!

So what that I get angry when I see people whom do not deserve to be a mother yet are one? I know that's bad but it really bothers me when I see those parents whom could have cared less about being a parent, whom left their child unattended, whom allowed the child to cry constantly! Things like that bother me because I know without a shadow of doubt that would never be me! I would always put my child first...

So what if all these was something hard for me to share today but these are my fears & my insecurities.. I am sure we all have them in some way or another!